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When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep... and you're never really awake.

ok. THAT'S an easy quote, internet friends. you know that one, right?

was it just last thursday morning i was talking about insomnia? i don't know. anyway, woke up at a frightening 1:52 this morning. never went back to sleep. it's reverse insomnia. no... reverse insomnia would be sleep. it's inverted insomnia. i can get to sleep, i just can't stay asleep. and let's face, i'm getting to sleep because of DRUGS!! whoooo-hooooo.

so... sleep. as i may have mentioned before, i have diagnosed myself with sleep apnea, but i've never done anything more than declare it so. but my blood pressure it back up. and it shouldn't be. i'm too young. but i was too young when it first become "high" blood pressure in the first place. i was reading about sleep apnea, and it can cause high blood pressure! yes! see? i knew it. i have sleep apnea. i was doing some research on sleep clinics, and my insurance coverage. it doesn't say it's NOT covered. but that doesn't mean anything. i'll probably have to call.

what this all means in that maybe, in the next few months, i will FINALLY go to a sleep clinic, like everyone has been telling me to do. it's just... i don't like people telling me what to do. why do you think it took me so long to get a breast reduction? it has to be MY idea. you think people would know that by now.

i didn't get up right away. i snuggled with pru, and i alternated between my favorite games. game 1: ok jodi... you've just won the lottery, now what? and game 2: jean claude/ranger/roarke is my boyfriend. [it depends on my mood as to which one is my boyfriend.] then i finally got up and came into work at 6.

now i have to go write a very professional sounding letter. this takes effort on my part. a great deal of concentration... so that i don't come off sounding like a kid.

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my favorite game: jean claude, ranger, AND roarke are my boyfriends. now THAT is a fun game! ;)