I got it, I got it. I know your damn words, right?
well, i bet you are wondering how i did on nanowrimo. truth is, i think i’m almost done. of course, the other truth is, after the first 30k, everything started falling apart and i was just typing words for word count sake. i even retold stories from my blog, last night. i stayed up until about 3:30 am. i went back and read a bunch of my old blog entries, and then retold them. part of me feels like i’m cheating, because i already wrote those stories. but then, part of me says “fuck off! so i’m using ideas from past stories? they are my words and i am retyping them!” which is true. and nothing comes out the same way when you write it a second time. i can tell you, there is not a single word in my story that did not come from me. as a matter of fact, i am writing this blog entry in my story now. why? because i don’t have time to waste words, people! and like i said, the story has pretty much fallen apart. i’m ok with that, i’m going to continue on with it, but i’ve made some changes, and i have some new ideas. i’m going to write the whole damn thing, believe me. and i’ll probably use some of my stories from the blog, changed to fit into lucy’s world. write what you know, right? that’s what life experiences are for.
things i’ve learned:
- i love to write.
- i want to write for a living.
- you have to write every day. don’t take too many days off in a row, in the middle of a story, you’ll lose your flow.
- as crappy as you think something is, while you write it, when you go back and read it, you find it’s not crap at all.
- characters really do take over the story, and decide what is going to happen. i thought it was cliche, but it’s not.
- just because you don’t want any romance in the story, does not mean that lucy is going to listen to you.
- sometimes, characters change their names halfway through the book.
- and, again, i love to write. i think that maybe, it’s possible, that just maybe i might eventually get to do it for a living. you never know. stranger things have happened.