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so... not much has been going on. that is to say, i haven't been very observant of the world around me. which gives me very little to comment on, here. granddad passed away yesterday morning. i am still waiting to hear the details about the funeral, to know when i will be going to arizona. so i am at work today. however, my mind is not really on my job, i have to admit. i'm very sad. i'm sad that granddad is gone, and grandma is alone. i'm sad that granddad had to live so long, when the last few years have been nothing but debilitating and painful. i'm sad i don't have my father around, last friday marked the 10 year anniversary of his death. i'm sad i had to call a sibling and inform him of his grandfather's death, when in reality, that side of the family has basically severed ties with him. i'm sad the same sibling is no longer sober. i'm angry, actually, that he's no longer sober. but that's a story for another day.

so, i'm all wrapped up in my emotions. and since i don't feel like spilling all my sadness all over everyone, i am just reading books.

but, tell me what you think of this. i'm halfway thinking of driving to phoenix. it's a two day drive, basically. that's four total days of driving. here's why. i'm sick of the airport. it pisses me off. the amount of effort it takes to go anywhere is so frustrating and annoying and tiresome. the idea of having to go through it, just feels so draining. whereas, the idea of driving, well that appeals to me. i like to drive. it's meditative. i like thinking. i like seeing things around me. i like singing along to the tunes. i like the idea of having my own car in phoenix, without having to rent one. i like the fact that you can bring whatever your trunk can hold. you don't have to cram things into a suitcase. if you can't decide what shoes to bring, bring a trunkload of 'em. i don't know.... i just think it would be good for me. somehow. some people have looked at me funny when i've brought this up. i'm open to opinions either way. so tell me what you think.