… and then… when i realized that the camera was on me, and people [santa] was watching…

so, as you can see, i’ve been messing about with the design. i’ve changed the home page as well. i would not say everything is done. but i decided i just couldn’t stand that purple anymore. it was only supposed to be temporary.
alright, i’m very very tired now. i’ve had 3 days of os x training, which i enjoyed a great deal, as naturally i would. but between work and home, i’ve spent too much time in front of a computer and i think it’s affecting my brain.
look for the design/layout to get some final touches in the next few weeks.
ps: i changed the date’s to french, just for fun. because that is an option in movabletype. i thought it was tres cosmopolitan of me.

i’ve been pretty quiet, i know. and here is why:
Definition of depression. to be considered clinically depressed, you need to be feeling at least five of the following symptoms for about two weeks. that’s a lose guide.
– Persistent feelings of sadness, irritability or anxiety
– Overreaction to irritations
– Loss of interest in activities previously enjoyed, including sex
– Sleep too much, or sleep too little
– Unexpected loss or gain of weight
– Tiredness or restlessness
– Slowed movement, thought and/or speech
– Guilt, low self-esteem, feelings of worthlessness
– Inability to concentrate and poor memory
– Loss of motivation
– Feelings of hopelessness
– Suicidal thoughts and/or behavior
– Withdrawal from relationships, anti-social behavior
– Physical aches and pains that seem to have no other cause
and i’ve been experiencing 8 of them, for more than two weeks. actually, since about july. adjusted some meds, and at first, i thought it might work. but it was temporary. i was probably just feeling better because i was doing something about it. that didn’t last. once i did not get a temporary xmas job IMMEDIATELY my spirits fell directly to the floor.
so poor little depressed jodi… what’s she going to do? increase her meds and she her shrink, that’s what. don’t worry… it’s just been especially bad the last few weeks. i’ll be ok.
title is a quote from “say anything” which is one of the best movies of all time as we all know.
here is a little xmas picture of me at about 3 to cheer you up, after all my depression talk. don’t i look EVIL? i do. bet i made the naughty list that year.

and maybe we need a picture of eddie izzard. because who can be uncheered when thinking of eddie izzard?

look! he’s a bunny!

have you heard of this?
From NaNoWriMo.org:
National Novel Writing Month is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to novel writing. Participants begin writing November 1. The goal is to write a 175-page (50,000-word) novel by midnight, November 30.
Valuing enthusiasm and perseverance over talent and craft, NaNoWriMo is a novel-writing program for everyone who has thought fleetingly about writing a novel but has been scared away by the time and effort involved.
Because of the limited writing window, the ONLY thing that matters in NaNoWriMo is output. It’s all about quantity, not quality. The kamikaze approach forces you to lower your expectations, take risks, and write on the fly.
Make no mistake: You will be writing a lot of crap. And that’s a good thing. By forcing yourself to write so intensely, you are giving yourself permission to make mistakes. To forgo the endless tweaking and editing and just create. To build without tearing down.
As you spend November writing, you can draw comfort from the fact that, all around the world, other National Novel Writing Month participants are going through the same joys and sorrows of producing the Great Frantic Novel. Wrimos meet throughout the month to offer encouragement, commiseration, and — when the thing is done — the kind of raucous celebrations that tend to frighten animals and small children.
Last year, we had 5000 participants. Over 700 of them crossed the 50k finish line by the midnight deadline, entering into the annals of NaNoWriMo superstardom forever. They started the month as auto mechanics, out-of-work actors, and middle school English teachers. They walked away novelists.
So, to recap:
What: Writing one 50,000-word novel from scratch in a month’s time.
Who: You! We can’t do this unless we have some other people trying it as well. Let’s write laughably awful yet lengthy prose together.
Why: The reasons are endless! To actively participate in one of our era’s most enchanting art forms! To write without having to obsess over quality. To be able to make obscure references to passages from your novel at parties. To be able to mock real novelists who dawdle on and on, taking far longer than 30 days to produce their work.
When: Writing begins November 1, 2002. To be added to the official list of winners, the 50,000-word mark must be reached by November 30 at midnight. Once your novel has been verified by our web-based team of robotic word counters, the partying begins.

how come i didn’t know about this? i so completely need to do this! i cannot believe i found out about it at the end of nov. dammit. i’m doing this next year.

hi. long time no write. sorry. bad jodi. first i was sick, then it was thanksgiving, then i was in san jose for cousin jon’s wedding. now i am back. so here i am.
i actually don’t have much to say at this minute. i might have more later. maybe i am just popping in to say i am not gone. i’m working on a new design for the site, as well. hopefully soon.