this is just something to tide you over until i have time to play…

click to enlarge the picture of the most defeated cat ever.

bonjour bÈbÈs digitaux!
so i’m back at work now. well, i’ve been back since tuesday. and, true to form, i’m completely lost. as far as i was concerned, my job was now to lounge on the couch and read, or sit at my computer and write. oh, and sleep in and eat pumpkin pie. that was my job. and then i came back here. there is no couch in my cube, but there is a bean bag chair. but people keep asking me to do things. asking me questions and wondering when i am going to be able to get to this or get to that. so not a lot of time for writing. and there is no pie anywhere. i have managed to sleep in, more about that later.
but it’s not all bad, kids! the most amazing thing happened to my workplace while i was gone. my first day back, i immediately went offsite on a field trip. walked in the door and 15 minutes later was walking back out again. i walked into central services to get a bev for the road and GUESS WHAT!! they’ve added new soda pop flavors! previously it had been coke, diet coke, caffeine free diet coke, root beer, 7-up regular and diet and ginger ale. well now there is also pepsi and diet pepsi [which i like better than diet coke] and DR. PEPPER and DIET DR. PEPPER!! yes! it’s true. after nearly five years here, they finally came to their senses. i think everyone around me is worried that our stock price will go down due to losses felt by the incredible volume of free dr. pepper i will consume. but i’m working on the water thing. so they need not worry. i’ll only have a can or two a day. unless it’s a bad day. or friday. or monday.
i need to conduct une petite survey for my friend mollymonster. please to tell me if you are a fan of lip balm. and if so, what’s your favorite brand. and if you feel like it, you can say why it’s your favorite brand. i’m a huge fan of the lip balm. i always have some with me. molly wants to open a little web store. i’m going to be in R&D. maybe R&D&R. research, development and review. but i will probably not really develop anything. so maybe i am just R&R. which is rest and relaxation. which is fine with me! my title is lip balm scientist. i like being a scientist. BACK OFF MAN, i’m a lip balm scientist. so, anyway, please answer my lip balm questions. it will bring you good karma, and i will think happy thoughts on behalf of you as well. thanks for your support.

from judes

go to barnes and noble, baby!!

take a look at the icon in the lower right of the page.

well, i bet you are wondering how i did on nanowrimo. truth is, i think iím almost done. of course, the other truth is, after the first 30k, everything started falling apart and i was just typing words for word count sake. i even retold stories from my blog, last night. i stayed up until about 3:30 am. i went back and read a bunch of my old blog entries, and then retold them. part of me feels like iím cheating, because i already wrote those stories. but then, part of me says ìfuck off! so iím using ideas from past stories? they are my words and i am retyping them!î which is true. and nothing comes out the same way when you write it a second time. i can tell you, there is not a single word in my story that did not come from me. as a matter of fact, i am writing this blog entry in my story now. why? because i donít have time to waste words, people! and like i said, the story has pretty much fallen apart. iím ok with that, iím going to continue on with it, but iíve made some changes, and i have some new ideas. iím going to write the whole damn thing, believe me. and iíll probably use some of my stories from the blog, changed to fit into lucyís world. write what you know, right? thatís what life experiences are for.
things iíve learned:

• i love to write.
• i want to write for a living.
• you have to write every day. donít take too many days off in a row, in the middle of a story, youíll lose your flow.
• as crappy as you think something is, while you write it, when you go back and read it, you find itís not crap at all.
• characters really do take over the story, and decide what is going to happen. i thought it was cliche, but itís not.
• just because you donít want any romance in the story, does not mean that lucy is going to listen to you.
• sometimes, characters change their names halfway through the book.
• and, again, i love to write. i think that maybe, itís possible, that just maybe i might eventually get to do it for a living. you never know. stranger things have happened.

you know, the first half of the 50k i wrote, for nanowrimo, wasn’t all that hard. but this second half. it’s hard! it’s crap. all the things i thought would happen, are sounding trite and boring. i no longer have the momentum of the ‘beginning.’ i guess i am working my way to end of the first third of a book. and maybe that’s the real tough part. i don’t know. i’m spending a lot more time thinking, and less time typing, than i did in the beginning. in the beginning, it was dying to get out.
anyway, not going to be too much updating done, until i finish this thing. sunday night seems awfully soon. and time travels faster when you are vacation, that’s a proven fact. you’ll hear from me again, when i break 30k.

i love chris, the nanowrimo guy…
“And if you, like me, are somewhere far below 50,000, know that the week of our heroic, come-from-behind victory has officially begun. This is not just something we’ll do. It’s something we are. We’re last-minute writers, quick-witted storytellers, and procrastinating dreamers. Dreamers who are wide awake now, and flying towards the finish line. ”

i have more than half of my word count left to write, and it is the last week of nanowrimo. am i insane? yes, i believe i am. for pete’s sake, what was i thinking? i guess i was thinking i needed a little pressure.
today is the last day of ramadan, which means that soon, fee will be able to pig out!! like a hungry, vegetarian pig. and, in celebration, all non-muslim americans will pig out on thursday. in a show of religious tolerance. because that’s what america’s all about right? tolerance. sure. actually, i believe america, and thanksgiving, is all about turkey. for me, it’s all about stuffing and pie. i’m in charge of the pies every year. and i think this is due to be one of my good years. every few years, i start to get cocky, and think i’ve got this pie baking shit down pat. and something bad happens to humble me. last year i decided to forgo the pecan pie, which i don’t like anyway, for another family recipe my mom really likes. my grandma loretta’s apple cake. it was a disaster!! i don’t remember what the cake is supposed to be like… but my cake was mush, and tasted like… paste. the pumpkin pie was fine. but a few years before that, i forgot to put sugar in the pumpkin pie. it tasted like … again… paste. this year, i’m sticking to the traditional pumpkin and pecan pies. nothing fancy or new. so i should be ok, knock on wood. like i said, i’m due for a year of successful baking, after last years horrific apple cake debacle. if someone wants something else, let them make it themselves. the best part about it is, i’m making one pie for the family and one for me. yummmm… i could live on pumpkin pie with whipped cream on top. [don’t say it, fee. i know what you are thinking.]

what does this mean? i don’t know… i was just killing time.

Your soul is bound to the Yellow Rose: The
Gentle.
“I’ve travelled through the land of
surrender and seen it all. I throw my heart
out and keep my head up, and now I travel
through the land of peace.”
The Yellow Rose is associated with friendship,
intuition, and fun. It is governed by the
goddess Hestia and its sign is The Intertwined
Rings, or True Friendship.
As a Yellow Rose, you always look out for your
friends. You would much rather have strong
ties with friends than a single tie with a
lover and your devotion to your friends is
clear. You may have great intuition and be
able to read emotions clearly, but sometimes
you can seem distant yourself.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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