some stumbling blocks to the low carb thing. i have a problem. two problems. i sorta forgot about them. a: i don’t cook. and when i do, it turns out badly. this could probably be remedied with practice. but b: is a stranger issue. it’s been so long since i’ve prepared anything from scratch, i’d actually forgotten about it. when i cook, i get queasy. not massively so, but what we call “alien baby” level. whatever i am cooking, with the exception of cookies, makes me queasy. and then i won’t eat it. and i admit it, anything MEAT is the worst. just having contact with it, in it’s uncooked form… ruins it for me. now, don’t go thinking i’m a closet vegetarian, cuz i’m not. i feel the same way when i make a salad. i can sit and watch you make me a steak start to finish, no problem. but if i handle the meat, if i am responsible for the cooking, i get queasy. it’s just so… fleshy.
anyway. yeah. i didn’t eat lunch because it made me ill, i didn’t eat dinner for the same reason, and i couldn’t eat my breakfast. i’m sure this is a psychological coping mechanism, which enables me to never fully grow up and take on grownup responsibilities. hey… i can’t cook, i’ll get queasy.
i’m not ready to give up. entirely. my issues with cooking can be overcome. so here is what i decided to do, the whole cooking thing was stressing me out. i’m kinda edgy right now. so, i’m not on the diet. lasted a day. lost a pound and a half. 🙂 but sandy’s advice confirmed what i already knew. you can’t cheat on this diet and get results. and i’m not at the point where i can cook and eat my own cooking for every meal. oh yeah, i am decided to do, through november, possible the holidays entirely:
– cut down on sugar. no morning dr. pepper. it’s diet dr. pepper. no candy.
– religiously drink 64 ounces of water a day. lost a whole size last year doing just that.
– find ways to incorporate more protein in my diet, to deal with carby crashes.
– cook my own dinner at least four days a week, from scratch, no frozen, until i get better, and i don’t get queasy.
– be aware of how many carbs i eat, and cut down on them. less pasta and bread.
i think that’s it for now. it sounds like a good start. i know you are probably thinking the whole queasy cooking/eating thing is crazy. but let’s not forget louise, who can only eat of plates of certain colors, or she gets queasy. that’s crazier… right? louise and i together… in a restaurant. “what color plates do you server your food on, can i see one ahead of time? btw, i hate pork. don’t bring me pork.” “look, it’s very important that my food not touch. you’ve got some vegetable medley touching my pasta. is there mayonnaise on that? i can’t eat mayonnaise… I’LL HURL!! seriously… i’ve got a note from my doctor.”
answers to some comments:
wow, sandy!! that’s amazing! and awesome! yay, you! and loon, you are correct, it is evil. they were evil cupcakes. and i pity the souls of the people who ate them. and fee… not one peep out of you about food. it’s ramadan. you are not allowed to talk about food during daylight hours. and if it’s not daylight hours, what are you doing commenting on my food, you should be eating a pile of your own food. 😛
tonight i am going to try to do something about my pathetic word count. as of yet, lucy hasn’t even been laid off from her job, or confronted her sorta boyfriend, hal, about his affair with the slutty penelope. i haven’t even finished the first plot turtle. word count? still 2,809. i didn’t write last night, i went to bed instead. i was queasy!!